Not Scared Anymore

Old Treasures on Tuesdays 👑

This one was definitely worth revisiting! I’m so blessed in my spirit, reflecting on God’s faithfulness as described below. This was from April 2020.

Cuddling with my Lily

“I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears” (Ps. 34:4, NKJV).

Today, I would like to share something personal with you. I’ve had to grapple with fear during this COVID crisis. For one thing, my dad got very sick with it. He wasn’t hospitalized, but he wanted to be. He felt like he was dying. When I found out he was seriously ill, I began to fast. I fasted for three days, until the worst danger had passed. With all my heart, I am grateful to the Father, because he is completely well now.

Before his recovery, when the feeling of alarm was filling my chest, the Lord met me. I put worship music on loud and centered my focus on Him. I spent hours lifting up my heart to Him in prayer and singing in the Spirit. He led me to work on my painting as I did so. Holy Spirit was filling me with Jesus, as the colors flowed onto the canvas. Through that time with Him, He delivered me from my fear for my dad’s life. He filled me with supernatural peace.

What has been perhaps even a little more vulnerable, however, has been my concern for Lily, my seven-year-old. Last year, she was in a medically induced coma for seventeen days with severe pneumonia. All that time, a machine breathed for her. Our Almighty God delivered us from that heart-breaking situation and restored her to health. However, she has since then come through a gradual process of recovery in her respiratory health. For months, she had a lingering cough. It was only in January that it was gone, and she has still had a couple brief bouts of cough since then.

So then this pandemic began. Ominous news articles warned that individuals with previous medical vulnerabilities could be in greater danger. My mama bear antennae immediately went up. The “what if’s” started to attack my mind and emotions. The assault on my imagination began. Scenes of hospitalization, and grave danger once again, flashed before my mind’s eye…

Since then, I’ve been seeking the Lord earnestly (as is my life-long habit). I felt prompted to write this post to share with you, that the Father has faithfully delivered me from my fears. Has the coronavirus gone away? No. The cases have continued to increase in Iquitos. This week, two people in our close circle have been sick. We don’t have test results back yet, but it wouldn’t be surprising if it’s COVID they’ve been fighting. This is increasingly close to home.

And yet, my fears for Lily have gone away. The Lord simply removed them from my soul.

Jesus is Faithful and True. His promises are Yes and Amen. My friend, I testify to you, “I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears” (Ps. 34:4, NKJV).

I’ve been so full of peace as I sit in the Lord’s presence listening to worship music and letting my creativity flow. My heart knows. He’s got us.

Dear one, He’s got you, too.

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Have you experienced the Lord’s deliverance from fear? I’d love to hear about it!

 P.S. It’s no coincidence that today’s verse is immediately following our verse from last week about magnifying the Lord. Do you see the connection between magnifying Him and being delivered from our fears?