“For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking but of righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit” (Rom. 14:17, ESV, emphasis mine).
When I was a teenager, I was intense about everything. This included my pursuit of spiritual things. I had a “a zeal for God, but not in accordance with knowledge” (Rom. 10:2, NASB). The knowledge I was missing was a deep heart knowledge of how loved I was by God.
The result was that I walked around feeling like I was failing Him most of the time. I was convinced that I should be telling every random stranger on the bus, “Jesus loves you.” A dark cloud of failure hung over me because I was too shy to do so. How ironic! I did not even really know, the way I needed to, that He loved me.