Talking to God About My Pain

“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us” (Rom. 8:18, ESV).

I looked up into Jesus’ face, and I asked Him a question.

“Will You please help me understand how Your loving heart is okay with letting me hurt so much?”

He responded to me in beautiful intimacy, and I wrote down His answer. That conversation I had with Him was several years ago. Today, I want to share it with you. I have copied it here from my journal pages. This is what He breathed into my heart that day. I echoed back to Him what He had said in the following paragraphs. The communication had been Spirit-to-spirit, dropped right into my spirit from His. This kind of message comes without words, so I then needed to put it into English for processing and recording it. This is what I had understood as His response:

        “In Your foreknowledge, Lord, You knew that Adam and Eve would fall. You foresaw all the anguish of every human that would ever live. You knew that You would personally feel and experience absolutely all of it in Your enormous heart… because you are Emmanuel. You are right here with us in our pain. You knew that you would experience all this pain at its most intense, at Calvary. You understood that creating us would come at indescribably enormous personal cost to You. You looked at all the pain to come, and You looked past it, to me and You reveling in the bliss of eternal togetherness. And You said, ‘My love, You’re worth it all.’

        In the same way, You looked at the pain I would walk through. Then You looked past it to the eternal bliss that would be the reward of my suffering. In Your infinite perspective and wisdom, You knew that it would be exceedingly, indescribably worth every tear – worth it to me too, just like it is worth it to You. You knew that this blink of an eye here is not even worth comparing to – putting on a scale with – the eternal weight of glory that will TRULY VERY, VERY SOON be my reality forevermore!

        You look in my eyes now with ancient eyes that have born the pain of the ages, and You tell me again, ‘My love, you’re worth it all.’ You speak this to me with all the depths of Your fiery soul! I am the joy set before You.

       I bow down and worship You!”

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The question that I asked God that day is, no doubt, one that many of us have grappled with. Do you have any additional insights into the matter?

27 thoughts on “Talking to God About My Pain

  1. When we can meditate on the incomprehensible anguish Jesus must have endured in His Passion, whatever we are going through becomes minuscule. But because we understand that he did it for us, the strength to persevere overcomes and we can with his help continue to go through. I love the saying that the easiest way to the other side is through

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  2. So very touching to read this! Yes he bears such anguish in our pain, but he LOVES US so VERY MUCH with HIS infinite LOVE! Life has thrown several sharp curveballs at me, but HE is always faithful in comforting us amidst or screams of pain and not understanding!
    Blessings to you! <3!

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  3. My response is a personal one but I hope might be relatable and beneficial to some.

    The question you posed is something I often ponder when thinking about singleness. It is fine to be without a spouse, and is nothing to lament if we are with God. But my heart has yearned to find a wife for as long as I can remember. I struggle with why I have not yet found this person. Or if I have met them, why I haven’t been able to engage in the right communication to express and receive this joy in the right way. I’m getting better at giving this over to God, but sometimes it’s still tough.

    The strangest thing is feeling like I’ve found the right person. Someone whom spending time with encourages me in my relationship with God. Someone whom time spent with is stress-free and as enjoyable as can be. Of course this is time well spent regardless. Good friends are wonderful to have.

    So I lament and pose the very question you have.

    As always, thank you for sharing. ♥

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    1. Hamish, thank you so much for sharing from your personal journey on this one. Especially since what you have shared is something so many are walking through, including several very close to me. May the Father strengthen you in His love as you continue to wait on Him in this area so close to your heart!

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